A Drop Of Elixir ..........

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Wednesday, September 14, 2005

Disconnected

There has been so many things going on... more like disconnected thoughts.
Im almost shy blogging again, jus like i was the first time *smiles*

Didnt have any inclination to write. I decided its too much pain anyways.And I dono...i jus didnt feel like it anymore. I didnt wanna write it down.I think beech mein i jus cudnt write, almost like lost the ability to pen a few words together.
There have been some maturity, some getting-to-know-myself situations, some eye-openers... but all so disconnected, different... i cant seem to write it down even.

I thought its the blog template. Lovely as it was, i dont think it was me. I dont think a lot of things these days is me. Changing- i always was anyways. Being different i always was, weird is the word lets call it eccentric to make it sound nicer.
Im restless these days, these days being some months now. I first thought it was work. Not getting time for stuff. But that aint true. Because I do have time and I dont utilise it well. Not like I was the epitome of productivity but now its plain worse. Musiq teacher calls every weekend asking why i dont go for the lessons anymore, friends call wanting to meet up, if not for a movie or something, jus a cuppa coffee and some chat, folks back home sulking coz i dont give time at home, and to add to all that, blog world beckoning. *smiles* its all very flattering. Theres nothing like being in demand to boost up your spirits. But I think it makes me feel worse.

Its kinda weird, writing again. I feel like a new comer again. Alien grounds. Maybe ill blog surf now, catch up on peoples life and woes. Because thats wat they all dont, dont they? At the end of the day, vent it all out. It was for me. An outlet. An expression.
Ally Mcbeal types. I kno i cant do it in reality, throw someone outta da window, i dont have da strength nor da heart to do it, but deriving satisfaction by playin it in my mind.
I was thinking today, small trivial things had such importance in my life once.. Is it me becoming more mature, too sophisticated now to pay attention to the little things that used to excite me once upon a time... or is it the fact that I now hve a new channel to direct it. I hope not.
Starting now, there is so much to say....so much to share, so much to pen down...

Rohini told me last week, "y stopped blogging shipra? It was one of the very few good things you do and do well" *smiles in nostalgia* I missed you, blog dearest. And missed the ego stroking comments too. Here rohini, this post is for you. For all the times we spent together. I really miss you and purv and blogging and blogger pals
And me.
And this is how I feel.
Disconnected...

11 Comments:

  • At September 14, 2005 10:32 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Hmm, nice to see Shipinus back into the blogging thingy. Keep it going this time around.
    N

     
  • At September 14, 2005 11:06 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Hey
    It does Happen when you join the office.. It sucks in the beginning but then u get used to it..
    Carry on

     
  • At September 15, 2005 1:13 AM, Blogger Arz000n said…

    A warm welcome to ELXIR

    What the @#$@#$

    What happend to your blog template?
    Where is that amazing beach snap on top which I used to envy during each visit.

    :(

    Lemme read the post now

     
  • At September 15, 2005 1:16 AM, Blogger Arz000n said…

    Awwwwwwwww....
    An awesome blogger feeling disconnected :(
    Not a good sign Elixir

    Now that you are almost back with a new template, betta come out with kick-ass posts pretty sooon :)


    Hope to hear from you now.
    Take care and dont give up blogging
    Its one of the very few good things you were doing perfectly na ;)

    Hehehe...

     
  • At September 15, 2005 3:00 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    hmmm unlike you to sound morose. Malaria hangover kyaa? atleast you are back to blogging.

    will check more often

    emanon
    yeah that bum you know!!

     
  • At September 15, 2005 3:39 AM, Blogger . : A : . said…

    Welcome back. A new beginning awaits.

    ;-)

     
  • At September 15, 2005 10:33 AM, Blogger Elixir said…

    N: Yeah!

    Anon : Yeah i hope da beginning part is the phase goin on.

     
  • At September 15, 2005 10:39 AM, Blogger Elixir said…

    Arzoon: hehe n u had to be sassy huh!

    emanon: no not malaria, cold :P

    A: :) thankz

     
  • At September 15, 2005 11:35 AM, Anonymous N!K|-|||_ said…

    Disconnection comes with an advantage. When you get back to feeling connected, you feel invincible.

    Welcome byaack!

     
  • At March 02, 2007 9:54 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Best regards from NY! » »

     
  • At March 05, 2007 3:35 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Where did you find it? Interesting read » » »

     

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