And I blog again...
If i post this one now, it will be a feat accomplished.
Was blog surfing since yesterday, n boy is everything different or what?!
Some taking a break, some on with life as always...some (read erratica n soxy- romancing thru comments section)
I still am a lil shy.
I jus wanna cry!!! * ill chuck the formal stuff for someother time!!! THIS IS MY BLOG SPACE!!!!!!!!!!*
i wanna cry so bad that I just pour out - everything thats hurting, everything thats undone, everything that pains... forget - every person who breaks my trust, every one who is not there anymore, every memory that brings it all back...
I jus wanna start afresh! Is it too much to ask??? To go back to being innocently self centered, seeing things with rose tinted glasses, jus being full o myself that outside didnt affect my existance?? I suppose it is. Not mid life crisis, im too young for that! Or m i? Maybe i need a brain transplant?! Im thinking too much these days, getting to be too paranoid, too touchy, too everything!!!
It all begins from the beginning actually. When people dont know you. Everything is hunky dory...then slowly...when they get close to you, see more than the perfect facade of yours, see you react to situations...then it all starts, the surprise, the shock, the fact that the person is jus so different than what you thought him to be!! The person is jus human! I dont even know what shit im babbling...but what the heck, no freud is reading this anyways. I wish I understood myself, realised who I am and stuff...its getting too complicated. I dono wat is the real me? The laughing-attempts at pathetic jokes- goof or this..this crying, wimpy shrivelled up thing!
I miss me, the old me. But the new me is kinda exciting too. Jus as unpredictable, but like ayee says, negatively.... bless her soul. I wouldnt ever want a daughter like me, or a frd or a mate....
Guess m too screwd up rite now, its late in the night, need to sleep!
Was blog surfing since yesterday, n boy is everything different or what?!
Some taking a break, some on with life as always...some (read erratica n soxy- romancing thru comments section)
I still am a lil shy.
I jus wanna cry!!! * ill chuck the formal stuff for someother time!!! THIS IS MY BLOG SPACE!!!!!!!!!!*
i wanna cry so bad that I just pour out - everything thats hurting, everything thats undone, everything that pains... forget - every person who breaks my trust, every one who is not there anymore, every memory that brings it all back...
I jus wanna start afresh! Is it too much to ask??? To go back to being innocently self centered, seeing things with rose tinted glasses, jus being full o myself that outside didnt affect my existance?? I suppose it is. Not mid life crisis, im too young for that! Or m i? Maybe i need a brain transplant?! Im thinking too much these days, getting to be too paranoid, too touchy, too everything!!!
It all begins from the beginning actually. When people dont know you. Everything is hunky dory...then slowly...when they get close to you, see more than the perfect facade of yours, see you react to situations...then it all starts, the surprise, the shock, the fact that the person is jus so different than what you thought him to be!! The person is jus human! I dont even know what shit im babbling...but what the heck, no freud is reading this anyways. I wish I understood myself, realised who I am and stuff...its getting too complicated. I dono wat is the real me? The laughing-attempts at pathetic jokes- goof or this..this crying, wimpy shrivelled up thing!
I miss me, the old me. But the new me is kinda exciting too. Jus as unpredictable, but like ayee says, negatively.... bless her soul. I wouldnt ever want a daughter like me, or a frd or a mate....
Guess m too screwd up rite now, its late in the night, need to sleep!
39 Comments:
At September 15, 2005 4:01 PM,
Artful Badger said…
Hmm..jsut passing by..it's about accepting. Once, beyond a stage there has to be a decision made to accept- no matter what. As long as it's conditional, you are always in for shit.
Relax!
At September 16, 2005 2:03 AM,
Arz000n said…
the new me is kinda exciting too.
Im still trying to find this exciting Elixir on this blog..
Hmmm....lemme search this blog with ma glasses :)
At September 16, 2005 7:31 AM,
The Wabbster said…
IT'S PINK! NAHEEEEEE!!!!!
At September 17, 2005 4:41 AM,
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i like elixir more. She wudnt stop smiling and had no qualms puttings her feet in her mouth.
This fretting abt herself ship is annoying.
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At September 17, 2005 8:50 AM,
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At September 17, 2005 2:14 PM,
The man in the box said…
Hmm...wake up tomorrow and it'll be a new start! Atleast I hope so.
At September 18, 2005 4:53 AM,
El Diabl020 said…
Hey HEY Ho ho!!
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Long time no see babe.... working hard eh??
Yes.. u do need a brain transplant.. and my brain needs a vacation from me.. wanna swap?
:)
At September 19, 2005 9:26 AM,
justme said…
its ok to crib at times.. its ok to cry.. dats life..!!
At September 20, 2005 1:47 AM,
J said…
hey... good to see u back! :)
At September 21, 2005 9:30 AM,
N!K|-|||_ said…
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At September 21, 2005 12:26 PM,
livinghigh said…
lol.. nopes, never too late to have a mid/qtr/anytime life crisis babe, as i know only too well! lol.
At September 22, 2005 11:41 PM,
Keshi said…
aww may u be the new u u want to be! :)
z000nie...
**lemme search this blog with ma glasses
ROFL! cuttte!
Keshi.
At September 26, 2005 9:04 PM,
The God Of Tall Things said…
I miss you too ... please dont die ...
At September 27, 2005 1:02 AM,
rapunzel said…
am stumped. donno what to say.but i know u r too intelligent to remain shrivelled. chin up.and life never gets so bad that u cant find beauty in SOMEthing.
At September 27, 2005 1:03 AM,
rapunzel said…
oh and i totally agree with ramani. its all about decisions and priorities...and balance.
At September 27, 2005 2:06 AM,
Pinki said…
Indeed, sometimes we need to change, according to the situation n the time. We need to mature wid time. We need to be more practical n sometimes more ignorant as well. But as Sharh Rukh says, parivartan is a necessity n a part of everyone's life. Cheers!!!
At September 28, 2005 7:18 AM,
The Wabbster said…
I miss the old me as well. Well... sometimes...
At October 06, 2005 6:55 AM,
The Wabbster said…
Okay... UPDATE TIME!!!
At October 07, 2005 4:48 AM,
erratica said…
dont worry, it happens. so just chill
At February 15, 2006 9:16 AM,
irisomnibus said…
"the perfect facade of yours" I call it a "melanin masquerade" ... Sad though it was i've changed .. but anyway .. my version of it is the first post of my blog if ya wanna see.. i usually dont like pink and a journal/diary undercover as a blog .. but hell urs is intersting ..grinn
At May 12, 2006 9:42 PM,
Anonymous said…
Hi ships,
This is vipin remember me? ..
Yeah one goes through this face ..more than once in his/her life time. And hey ...i gues you already you it and there fore fighting back. :) ...
Loved all of your blogs ...once again :)
Bye
deadlysmile01
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darn ..crappy errors in the last post..hope you got the message :p
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