Wednesday, March 29, 2006

Miserable!!!!

Forever and always, these days.
Very very restless!!
Dont know wat i want, what im seeking... but im searching for something. Peace maybe. God, once upon a time id go sniffing for trouble just to pep up my mundane life.
Not like suddenly my life has become any less mundane but a lot o trouble lately.
It isnt even trouble, God alone knows what it is, coz i sure cant fathom.....

Thought of changing my blog url... why you ask? Because my boss happened to read the posts dedicated to him (were nasty posts) . No use scrolling down searching for the posts, deleted them as a mark of my apology to him.
Then decided to change my url. First thought was that I dont wanna do it. I dont think I will. There is a curious peace when I see the old pink and brown page. Very pink as the guy bloggers would comment *smiling fondly*

Id once sworn Id never change. But today was showing my palm to a colleague who -she says- can read em. And there is a drastic change in the lines i was born with and my present lines. Figues, i thought. Have always wantd to do something myself.

Trying to find my sense o humour, trying to find my zest for life. Feel like crying sometimes. A lot of things went into making me the way I am today. Maybe a lot more confident, a lot more successful *now that is debatable* but I hate to see at the cost of me. Who am I to blame anybody, I lapped appreciation when I got it, hungered for more...

Wish I wasnt such a fool. Work happened and love happened. N now I know that all my efforts in both is not going to be fruitful. Trying so hard to be the same old me, not happening. But i dont think im gonna give up!

I was fabulous once... I will be again. *I hope*

34 comments:

  1. miserable and "I"(not you) am loving it.. for once its nice to be on ther other side of reading about it ;)

    how the holy heavens did you find me???

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  2. well.. what do U know.. talk about co-incidences!!!

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  3. well hell.. I must have a very short term memory or something.. I didn't realise I left a comment in your blog a while ago.. yeah my id conked out.. ain't that great.. all the forces in the universe are conspiring in getting me to work.. but what is Urs? I forgot that one.. doom of death@gmail.com?? or something like that.. I did tell U I had a short term memory, right?

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  4. Ah ha! Welcome back, now let me go read!

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  5. ah..it happens to everyone time to time.
    chillax sweets

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  6. hmm boss evesdropping on ur blog, only to find his assasinated self shattered to a zillion tatters ?

    Either one had to change after that - your blog OR your boss :-D

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  7. 'Ring out the old, ring in the new' I say. Cool blog!

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  8. Not to worry.. the best of us have these days... I like the blog.. NICE PINK :oD!

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  9. I love the blog, though thou art an anonymous entity :) Trust me, you are not the only one who has gone thru this .I'm sure all of have experienced such a feeling, at one point or the other..

    What do you mean you were once fabulous? You still are.. Its just that you are "comparing and measuring" with the wrong things, and getting yourself into a "sad" and a depressing state..

    Life, as you might have heard a millions of times before, is a journey.. and not a destination.. So enjoy while you are enjoying, and when its done, just move on.. Change is a part of life,and probably the only constannt in it..

    :)

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  10. So I am not the only one who is depressed and think that LIFE Sucks!!!

    Welcome to the Club....

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  11. your blog used to be good...

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  12. Change the blog URL and bounce back to all those nasty posts...see to it that you are not bloggin from office ;)

    Might work...

    But before that..take a deep breath and trynna relax...

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  13. Hey, post more often yaar...even if ur boss reads it ;-)

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  14. Oh boss read your post...thats great. I tell my boss to read mine...but he never does. Actaully he thinks I am not at all creative and productive therefore wanted to show him my blog.

    Aneways may god make your life fabulous again

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  15. Hey welcome back. You know everyone has their highs and lows. But the important thing is to look for happiness in the smallest of things. One smile can make you forget ages of misery.

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  16. hey miss ships.......

    read ur post ... keep faith dear ... life is such ... its very very unpredictable...its a roller coaster.... but i know that u ll come out of all this mess unscathed... we all have such reserves to fall back on....

    hope that things improve in ur life with rspect to ur love life, job etc .... all the best ....

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